..almost even totally confused already!...almost totally refused already!

is there a relationship between the two?... or are they independant?

reality says..."hey you lot I am me and this is what I am and this is all this....it's all I got and it's everything this and that!!"

...bipolar says something too

..."hey this is me was me still me feeling you from both sides of what you reality fail to do the same as me I am not at your mercy no more you are just an obstacle to my peace!"

...the wicked toes crumbled the dirty land upon the touch
and the wicked knows the dirty hand just as such....untouched!

and my brain skates like a swan on drugs on the icefield of life!

hooting it's way with expensive crash helmet ...just a beak all sneak poking out in the danger to speak to sneak the beak...

sometimes airborne beautiful feathers ripped in the turbulence!

she is so graceful in such death defiance...the spiritual mental bird inside me...when alien male and alien female arrive together and combine the experience...

she is he was she? ...can he be she when she is me even when I am he?

...the bipolarity at the deepest human level

and the daredevil Godsend off it's face swan of life and death fumbles just in time to recollect how to navigate the now conflagrated icefield ...

landing like a baby....cool and calm...knowing nothing yet