All the time, it's not the first step for me. I'm okay with with Dr.'s knowing I have a “history” of it. I'm okay with talking about it. Until recently, I did not realize how much I down played it to my therapist. I know I've hid things from my husband and I say nothing to pdoc. Letting go of the eating disorder is horrendously scary. Letting go of anything and everything else is so much easier. Just keep working on moving forward.