Just a thought, for me, when I have nightmares, it is usually because my subconscious is getting ready to work on an issue. I have found that there is usually more to my nightmares than just the cutting. As my mind prepared to deal with my mother burning my hand on the gas range I had horrible nightmares of cutting and cutting beyond anything I had ever tried. Whatever I am working on now has lead to me clawing myself while I am asleep. It is frightening but it is just my mind trying to work out what I am not ready to face as yet. Try to be careful in those times when you feel the pull strongest but know even if you take a step back you stopped once and you can stop again. We are all only human and we fail sometimes no matter how hard we try. But we are not failures as long as we continue to try.

Dalila

A bend in the road is not the end of the road ... unless you fail to make the turn.

-- Anon