Open Eyes, you give a lot of perspective that I really appreciate. You're very intuitive and lovely.

Anyway, I think that I made some progress tonight. I went to the poetry reading that goes on every other week. No one was talking to me. Despite the fact that I found most people nice-but "unfriendable", I decided that their interaction was worthwhile and that I should talk to them. Of course, I made no new best friends, but even went I felt isolated and uncomfortable, I didn't feel like I was "separated" from the world, but rather, just quiet in it. Though I am sad that boy didn't walk me home, another friend did.

I think that it will be good for me to understand that I am an outsider, but not too far outside. Boy didn't work out, but that's okay. Maybe this is silly, but it means a lot to me.