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Originally Posted by BlueInanna
Hi, welcome/welcome back. I can very much relate. I'm trying to manage my bp/recovery, raise 3 children on my own and support my mom. Mom's in her 70's and she can no longer work, she's forgetful and on a lot of meds. She's staying with me right now. Sometimes I think I might scream and pull my hair out because, I don't have anybody to rely on / support me, and my business has had problems along with the economy for about 5 years. Also, my 2 older children have bp dx and many hospitalizations. It's unfair to me, not what I imagined a beautiful life would be, but it is what it is so I try not to be angry. "So how do you do it?" Because there's no other option, they are all counting on me. I'm working hard and praying things will turn around and may have some happy times to come.
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I feel your pain , so to speak, and hope your strength continues while waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel. Being a pillar of strength , finally took me to a detachment of my own feelings in order to just get the job done. Absentee of me but body in motion. How one does what needs to be done was a precursor to my breakdown .
Not to be meant as a comparison , but only as a " gotcha" of understanding where you are .
I'm fearful of repeating the past breakdown , though my load is lighter as now I don't have the kids to "raise" , my grandparents are now deceased ( I don't have to care for them) , my brother is in a care facility and not at home , work ability is limited due to health issues ...my mom is all that rolled into one ( sorry mom) bag of the same stuff with no $ to support herself. Yeah not as bad as it was, but I'm not the person I used to be. I can't bare the load for a length of time , only in spurts.
My heart goes out to you for facing what is before you, Be good to your self goes a long way when you can work that in. Give yourself a supermom pat on the back often !!!
