****. I have TWICE now written a post about my morning and it's disappeared. That is pretty much how my morning is going already. Electricity went out in 1/4 the house, tried to change the breaker in addition to the GFI outlet I already replaced and the only open place didn't have them. This morning, woke up to no heat in the house, even though H promised he was checking the propane (he admitted this morning he never did). Last night, had a huge sobbing meltdown and both my kids are like . My son thought someone had died because I never cry like that. Just got overwhelmed my therapy session being super hard, MC being super hard, feeling like this house is crappy and I am letting my children down, and I'm basically alone trying to earn money, fix stuff around here, and cannot rely on H to take literally less than TWO minutes to walk from where he parks his car to the propane tank to check it.

I was hoping when I got up this morning things would be better. I am going to get my daughter up and head in to my mother in law's later this morning. My son has an interview with a guy from Yale this morning, and then he and H will meet us for lunch with MIL. That'll be fun and will turn my mood around. Right?