I cannot even begin to tell you how impressive you are to be courageous enough to even have that ability to deal with trying to physically heal the scars for your past. And you add on top of that having this kind of conversation with a physician and the thought that has to go into it.

Your ability to just get in there and confront this head on rather than running away or avoiding it is really inspirational. I also think that the way you are talking about the possibility of relapse and your ability/power to change your response from an unhealthy one to a healthy one is absolutely right on. It is true that we cannot control how we feel-- whether it is that swirl of depression, flush of anxiety, or what you call "not reality." But you are illustrating what our T's often call "changing our response." We can learn how to recognize the signs that it is coming or here and make different choices to how we respond to whatever is plaguing us. Thus the value of learning skills, be it mindfulness or whatever assortment or array of things ground us, and we can ask for help.

I am really grateful for you sharing you story with us and I wish you the best as you move forward. I really appreciate the opportunity to see how far you've come and admire everything you've accomplished. It helps remind me that I CAN do these things in my own life, too.