Hi 37,

Like Payne said above, some guys like bigger women. Sounds like you may not have met one yet.

Those feelings of being bullied are hard. it feels like the whole world is against you when a gang of eight begin to pick on you. Ive been there. These people dont represent the whole planet but it can seem that way if its your current culture.

Your post doesnt mention your age. Heres some corny simple advice. You are the captain of your own ship. You can choose where you go, who you see, what you let bother you. Not easy I know, but still true.

When they tell you you are fat and ugly, tell yourself that they are unkind people for being that way. They have a lot to wake up to and one day they will, or spend their lives hurting and being hurt. Sounds like you want a different route. Thats a good place to be but it hurts right now.