I agree littleone! It's tough! And sailaway just try not to be so hard on yourself. If you're like me it is very hard to ask for help but almost second nature to give it. I commend you for calling your T. So you purged, at least you were aware of what you were doing and why you were doing it. I was never in therapy until I was hospitalized for my ED so my therapists always knew right away what my deal was. I guess it's like telling anyone for the first time, like sharing a dirty little secret. But atleast with therapist you dont have to worry about their reaction, you know they're on your side. Keep on trying sailaway!

Shannon