I can relate. I think that every bipolar person can relate. We've all wanted to go off our meds at some point.

Have the meds ever helped you to feel better? Forget about making you "normal"; now I'm talking about them pulling you put of a depression, or calming your anxiety, or settling your psychic pain in one way or another.

That's what they are supposed to do, make you feel better. Not to turn you into a neurotypical.

If they're not making you feel better, and you've tried several combinations (you can't expect the first med you take to be a miracle drug) then I think you have a good case for trying to go med free for awhile.