I have to wonder why it seems like whenever I get comfortable with my self, or think I am comfortable with myself I seem to f***k up or something in life goes terribly wrong. That is really what it seems to come down too much of the time. The last time it had a lot to do with klonopin and drinking like a dumbass on it but none the less I had been feeling alright about myself up until the point I ended up being really stupid and drinking a crap load at once while on klonopin. Well of course all hell broke lose I freaked the hell out, my friend called my sister to drive me home cause he couldn't deal with it and I managed to exaust myself and go to sleep that night but in the morning I was about ready to off myself so that was my first trip to the psych ward.

But even that still followed that weird pattern, when I attempted suicide at 15 it was after I had finally found some friends and felt I fit in somewhere it didn't last cause I moved back to my old town and lost contact with the friends who did care and ended up being stabbed in the back by a girl I thought to be my best friend. and there's just a number of times where it feels like things are going a little better and I am just getting more comfortable with myself and feeling a little better about life in general and then something terrible happens. Does anyone else have this issue?