Dear T,
I say it over and over again, that I don't know what to ask for or how to ask for it. But you don't get it... you don't explore it with me... I try to think of things that will work, but you don't go there... Can you please tell me how to say it right so I can say everything that I need to say?

Also, even though we have only met a small handful of times, I feel like I'm losing faith in your abilities... I know you are learning and can likely pick them up, but I need to not be allowed to fall apart so badly again. I desperately want someone to help keep me together... And I desperately need you to figure out what I'm trying not to tell you, because it will be my downfall.