Honestly I think its the guilt, every time I pay for it I feel dirty, desperate, lowest of the low deep inside. So its like a double edged sword. I feel every time I have sex with a hooker, thats another secret to a ever increasing pandoras box that I have to keep from any girl I get involved with in the future. Hence why I feel the need to quit it.
But wow. You really have raised some incredibly good points there. money is becoming an issue, however in the bar/club spree i just have done, with no results, I have spent more than on a hooker lol, so economically a hooker is the better option. I just really don't want to catch an STD. I've been lucky, I don't want to push that luck. hmmm. choices.
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