I've been so sad for a little while that you started nudging me to move on. You say I'm so much better, see me get anxious at what we know this means, and then tell me that you aren't going anywhere? It soothed me at the time, but I think you were trying to make me feel it would be my choice when to walk and I wouldn't feel abandoned yet again. Regardless, you are trying to get rid of me. The thing is - I have gotten stronger but I feel we have missed some connecting with each other and that is something I need to work on in general with relationships. I wish you would push me to make more eye contact with you. You say lovely, supportive things and I say nothing and look down. I never reciprocate or show appreciation -even though you have saved my life. I don't know how to tell you. I want to so much. I barely thank you at then end of a session.

Oh - and ...I just don't want to lose you.