I think about it a lot. I know it's not healthy and there a better ways to handle the feelings that make me want to hurt myself. I think a part of me wants to punish and hurt myself for feeling depressed. There was a couple of time I intentionally scratched myself. Not to the point where I drew blood, but I wanted to keep going. I also took a razor apart. I didn't cut myself, but I almost did. I think Sarah's reaction to seeing new scars is what stopped me. We never talked about self harming, but I don't think it would go over very well.