When people give me tasks they have to be very specific, because if I have to make decisions, I freeze up. I've been driven to tears before because I'm so worried about messing up. I'm also prone to feelings of emptiness, which are basicly like what you described. No clue what I'm feeling.

Do you have any personality disorders other than multiple personalily that you know of? I ask because I saw you on the bpd forums recently, and that surprised me.