I understand fully what you are going through. I developed OCD when I was 11 years old and it last until i was 18, I suffered for 7 years in silence and it was hell because no one in my family knew what was happening to me. But at 18 I was able to get in under control by exposing myself to my fears, and overcoming them, in order not to do my compulsions.

But i am now 22 and I have obessions. Its so bad dont know what I can do.