I would freak if i had to part with them, i have several months worth of meds both old and current and if i did throw them i would find some more to hord by the way its meds in general any types of meds .

I have no clue why i do it ,i dont actually say to myself hey im going to keep all these meds together its more like second nature and i dont realize i am doing it or have done it till couple days later .

i m scared to tell my team and wondering how they would react and do , because im not actually at will trying to do it honestly i swear on GOD its subconsciously i do it .

maybe its my alter(s) doing it without knowing being aware or maybe deep down im prepping for an od i have no clue at all it usally happens when im so far down in the dumps and out of control.
What can i do if its so deeply rooted in me ?

Ive started doing it at age 15 now that i look back.