Lately I have been seriously self harming last night I tried cutting and I didn't break any skin I was mad that I couldn't make myself bleed.

The day before I ripped out all my eyelashes out...

and the day before that I cut all my hair down below in bikini area and farther to stubble in some parts.

I feel so numb and out of control that I seriously want to self harm even more further maybe even close to suicide...

I wish it would stop
I wish I was normal
I wish I didn't have these urges.