The bus was late.

I barely made it to my meeting today.

The chairs were re-arranged.

It was predominantly men. And at a men's recovery center.

They were all sprawling around me and crowding me.

ICK!

I had to get out of there.

I wish there were women's meetings every day.

I have a schedule of them, but they are at odd times of the day.

I hate it when I need to run again because I am so scared of being retraumatized again.

As I have said before, I am okay when I am not feeling attacked or about to be.

I hate being surrounded by men.

So scary...

and then it's rage.

Did not do anything, but just felt rage inside.

Seeing red.

So triggered... .