Hoarding medicine is a bad idea. Why do you think you do it? If you have been doing since you were 15 then you must be doing it for a reason. I used to hoard so I could have control. Is that why you do it.

Now I have to get my meds each week from the chemist.

How about telling your team by giving them your stash. You need to talk to some-one if you are feeling that bad.