i know i've been accused in the past by him, that i 'mask' my annoyance or i don't act out with frustrated or get annoyed with him in a normal way, but i don't want to because i don't want to loose him, he has said to me many times that hes only ever loved me and doesn't want to be with anyone else, he is a celibate person. he asked me when i wanted to see him and what i wanted and i told him and then a week later, he suddenly hasn't answered me, so i thought, maybe he is stressed or just worried about himself, once i'm there, that he has to put on a 'good face' or maybe he just wants to be left alone, you'd think and then, the next thing, he talks about future plans with commitments to me and stuff.. so it's like, he wants to be with me, but at the same time, there's something in his head telling him to sabotage because he doesn't deserve me (but he is naturally possessive to a degree of me and doesn't want to loose me in that way) and that he seems afraid of making himself look moody so he'll hide it for days and doesn't want to ruin it but he still pushes.... the most sarcastic thing he does is he'll ask me if i know how he feels and if i analyse him right, he'll agree thats how he feels, but then he becomes resentful that i can read him, so everytime, he seems to be delving more covertly. it's very concerning, but i want to be there for him like he has been for me too, he was very accepting and caring about my recent diagnosis and is a very lovely person.