i've left about a few emails in the last few days, not many.. because i can't just stonewall him, but he hasn't answered again in those days or come online, so i thought, the best method was to just give him space for him to come back and talk to me, but i have high anxiety waiting at times and i have to stop myself, because i see he sometimes resents it, other times he tells me that his feeling depressed and i can write to him, but he needs time to get over it, but i am really really worried when he retreats, because i don't know whats happening or whether my method is the right one. i think he feels guilty that i always stay with him, but at the same time he wants me there, i agree he should talk to someone, but i'm the only one who knows about his personality state, he hides it from everyone and like a lot of men, doesn't want to talk to a doctor, that's why i tend to support more, so he has someone to talk to of course... and at times he does.