Exactly what I follow with each and every challenge that I am thrown from my child being placed in foster care so the two of us can bypass waiting lists to get us into therapy. To my son coming home violent and needing to be put in foster care to go through resedentail treatment programs, to getting a DHS caseworker bend on trying to break me down into signing over my parental rights. but I took her down instead. Im still here parental rights in tact and shes the one without a job and social workers license and cannot work as a DHS caseworker in the USA, To my having to battle my way through the denial phase of DID in a few months and developing a treatment plan and learning how to take care of my DID on a hush hush attitude of a jerk of a lawyer who ended up using my diagnosis against me in attemts that I would not see through the fact that he was not representing me correctly, and right on through to putting my DID info out there in my blog regardless of those that think I should shut up and stop blogging about my experiences with having DID, my research and my therapy programs that I am on to heal from it. Heck I have been up against the worst things on earth but still I push on against all opposition. I beat the odds with cancer by forcing the doctor into treating me instead of waiting for me to get worse so he could get more money from my insurance for other treatments because I only had a 50 50 chance for a remission with the medication that my insurance would pay for the first time around with treatment options. And I got that remission first time around. Through threats to be arrested for slander and libel, threats of my being committed to a long term mental health facility, and threats of harm and my life I pressed on forwards continueing with my public speaking engagements helping other victims of sexual abuse to break free, Had my dog killed by an abuser because I was helping his wife to get free from his violence and I still went on. Like I told Patrick when he killed my dog I have been up against bigger and worse monsters then him and he can't win against me. The only way any abuser will win against me be it physical, sexual, emotional or verbal abuse will be if I deside to stop fighting against abuse and abusers. The only person that can defeat me is ME. and Im not about to shut up and or stay down because that means my abusers win. I won't give any of my abusers the satifaction of my defeat. Like a special friend of mine told me -

You are just going to keep finding HOPE in hell aren't you? They don't call us survivors for nothing.