for a aspergers person, i am not apathetic or indifferent, i have co-morbid traits of avoidant apparently, in fact i wasn't diagnosed until i was in my 20's recently, i guess he feels guilty if he is doing that, what you say.. because he knows very well, i have limited to no family (no parents or outside close relationships) and my living family are all borderline or antisocial, so i'm heavily co-dependent and i see a psychologist, but to little avail, they are trying to 'erase my past' but i'm very affected, i think i may feel like this, because i've been rejected even by my dad and every subsequent male, so i have to accommodate and stuff.. it's stupid. i have all my hopes invested in not emotionally breaking down in such a position i'm in, it's very easy to feel sad or disheartened but everytime i feel that way and if he senses it, all it seems to do is give him negative validation of what his done and then he flees and is embarassed with himself, but i don't know how to react but to ignore his attempts to provoke me into this self-defeating attention, i am fully aware of depressiveness and up and down moods that comes with it, but i feel like, i don't have anyone and i don't want anyone.

i know it's wrong to be in this position, and i'm not with him because i have no other options, it's because i love him very much and it's extremely hard for me to trust people and i rarely trust anyone, i feel like i have to know what approach is best, i know depressed people push people away and isolate themselves, it's just the extended avoidance (and my freaking out), but still... it's hard to understand when you don't understand proper social cues like i do what's being done or thought by others.