I am going through so much right now. This time of year is so difficult for me due to the life that I have been through. Also it is a very difficult time for me right now because when I was 15 years old I gave birth to a baby boy and he was s*cr*f*c*d on the same day. That day is coming up. October 13 he would of been 21 years old. We were never able to name him, but deep down within we always called him Paul. So right now in the midst of a health crisis, a horrible time of year, as well as other things, we are in the midst of major grief. We didn't get to hold him. We did hear his cries, but that was about it. Won't go into any more detail about what happened. Just that we are in major grief over this. Remember our precious Paul on Friday if you can.