I'm just going to keep watching that Brene Brown video over and over again I think. I may have to quit therapy for awhile.

My therapist - totally inadvertently - invoked a lot of shame in me about speaking about it, telling how I felt.

A lot of old stuff came flooding forward.

I keep bringing forward everything I have to counter it. All the tools in my arsenal, but - oh boy - it's profound.

It's the "liar" scenario being replayed. Sigh.

I hope that I can overcome it. This is something I have to do, I can't rely on therapy to do it - at least not here.

Fall down 7 times, get up 8. Fall down 7 times, get up 8.