It is understandable that you want to be noticed. I am familiar with holes in the wall and have provided the tools for fixing the tools to the puncher. Among other things, the hole and the punching were about this person feel very very frustrated, very very angry, very alone, having dreams and wishes and feeling hopeless about them and alone in trying to figure out how to make them happen.
The punched hole is a loud statement of "I am in *this much* pain and misery!!

You could take what happened as a stepping stone to feeling much better if you talk about it in depth with your therapist. Or, if you don't have a therapist, you could use this as a reason to find one so that you will have someone to talk to about what you wish for, fear, feel frustrated about, feel hopeless about, feel joy about, feel hopeful about.