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Old Feb 24, 2013, 08:44 AM
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My husband has been acting distant lately. So I thought maybe it was due to stress... He's been very stressed with work plus we might be moving soon and we have a two year old that can occasionally be quite a handful.

Anyway last night he completely broke down, told me how stressed out and unhappy he has been... I kind of knew and could sense that, but as we got deeper in to conversation he told me that he has thought about leaving us for a little while from time to time... That he needs time to himself, he feels like he can't even enjoy little things bc of me(he's a musician at heart). I was take a back by this... I pretty much told him that as much as I love him I wouldn't hold him back but if he were to leave he was to understand it would be for good, and he could not come back to me in a few weeks when he was feeling better, marriage does not work that way. He promised me he wasn't going anywhere that he just needed to get it off his chest. I told him I would work on myself to make things easier for him(I rely on him for a lot. I have been very depressed lately and not helping out much around the house). I promised I would work at us... But he didn't say anything. He just kept staring At me with this look of pain in his eyes. I know he loves me... But I think he's starting to panic because when his mother was unhappy she took off for another man, his father was devastated and my H ended up having to pick up the pieces. I told him no matter how unhappy we are, if we love each other we can work on it.

So now it's the next day and I am in a panic... This conversation did not help my abandonment issues I have and I am terrified now I'm going to come home from work and he won't be here anymore. I'm trying so hard not to break down.

I have no one to turn to. No close friends I can talk to and I can't talk to my mother because she is impossible to have a conversation with.
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