checkin' in. an experience i had last week. i have a lot of potentially fatal conditions and i don't want any pity, friends. it's just bad genetics....thank goodness i no longer drink...anyway last week i spoke with my gp about some scary things happening to me out of the ordinary. falling down for no reason, staggering gait, my arms and hands shaking uncontrollaby,etc. she said to the nurse i want her to see a neuroligist today or admit her if we can't get an appointment STAT. i could tell i was going into a panic attack. then a thought popped up in my head..."you are never alone, i am here to help you, you can't change the outcome so lean on me. we will get through whatever the cause together" i felt a rush of relief in spite of my fears just before.
and for those of us who have a higher power in our life we know the peace and faith we have that we never had before we got sober. i am so grateful i'll never walk alone again. i think of The Promises from the big book. every day of my life is a joy cause i am no longer bound by alcohol.