I get stuck in a frame of mind a lot where I feel like I am worthless that all I do is cerate issues in my life, or for others. Sometime I will forget to say a simple thank you to someone and affects them in the wrong way. They react out of anger and makes me react in the same way.

but what they don't get is that in my mind I feel like all I do is fail cause my failures are pointed out to me far quicker then if I was to do something correctly.

it makes me feel worthless it makes me hate myself, for being a bother to both myself and to other people. And I don't like it, I don't like it I don't like that i hate myself this much that I think that maybe if I did not exist I would not be as much of a bother as I am.

I have had suicidal thoughts for a long long time, but I have never actually tried to..do anything. Which I am glad of, but I do hate feeling like this.

probably should talk about it with councilor.