We (my wife and I) went to an orientation meeting for the big sea turtle day that is coming up next week where we volunteer. My brain warned me to sit close to an exit (or stand) but all the seats were at the back of the room far from any exits. Then I made the mistake of sitting in the middle of a crowded row... I should have known better. My anxiety kept creeping up, and at the end of the meeting it was all I could do to keep from bolting for the door... All I wanted to do while sitting there was self-harm, and the urges kept on going after we left. Luckily, my wife realized I was freaking out and followed me out. We did brief "hello's" with people we knew, but quickly kept moving to get out (the place gets super-crowded on the weekends, and they are expecting about 1000 people an hour next saturday for the event... what did I sign up for?!) I haven't had an anxiety attack that bad in over a year... I'm still shaking over it (it was 2 hours ago) and trying to re-center... I don't know if I will be able to handle the whole day there with all those people... ugh... it sounds really cool, but I'm scared of being in such a huge crowd for 6 hours straight...