You have changed a whole lot Hammy, really its inpiring and amazing. I know that it has taken a lot of strength and these are challanges I have faced to, that are neither easy to face, admit, or change. This last year you have done it like a sprint runner!!

I know you have not always had an easy time giving yourself credit for your acheivements. Hehe I remember trying to convince you to take credit for some of them on more than one occasion, where you seemed reluctant too. So see you are even starting to do that too!! That is really important, the ability to acknowledge our own success and hard work. Thats hard for some of us. But it nourishes our self confidence too.

I think you should do something special, set some time aside to celebrate all you have accomplished this year. Reuniting with your son, taking control back over your life, becoming more stable in your moods, even getting back into the dating world, and look how you have been working with your dr's to manage your own health. Becoming and staying active, riding your bike etc. You really have a lot of acheivements worth celebrating.

And I am very very proud of you and admire your determination.

As for me and Ophelia, the stuff they are learning in their books in higher education in thise feilds comes from real peoples experiences of living, we all have no shortage of real life experience.

One thing I am working on right now is fear of success or accomplishment. There are some things I want to do and I back down because I am scared of acheiving. What will that feel like?? I have acheived things in life but those are private accomplishments, that I can keep to myself or share here with my online friends. They are not very meadsurable and not as public and that is holding me back. So challenges keep popping up from stuff we have been through, but we get to choose if we tackle it or not, and when we are ready.