PC is a good place for many reasons. We can vent here, we can bounce ideas around with others who've 'been there', we can get advice, we can gain knowledge. Check out some of the databases on the quicklinks at the top of the page or visit the home page, there 1000's of informative articles.

In my experience we cant have 'too much' support. If friends, family, employers, neighbors, etc can join in and support us while we work thru the thoughts and feelings we're having we stand a much better chance of success. A trained, professional Psy Doc or therapist can make the whole process much easier to navigate with treatment plans and medicines.

Start out by chronologically listing out the events that contributed to how you now feel. A rough draft will do to get started. As you write these memories out, feelings are going to come up that might be anger, fear, sorrow, etc... try not to overwhelm yourself (trigger yourself). Work slowly at a pace that lets you reprocess your original responses and re-frame them from a standpoint of survivor rather than victim. Your therapist will help you with this.

You can use the rough draft when you meet with a qualified professional who can then prescribe a treatment plan for you after a complete diagnosis. If you cant afford health care, is there a low cost clinic in your area?

A lot of people use PC to journal. It might be a good idea for you.