I view my anti-depressant as a safety net. It's not meant to cure my depression, just keep me from going under. And when life happens, I'm going to feel sad and knocked about, but hopefully not suicidal.

I was on the same anti-depressant for probably 20 years, and it stopped working. Last year I changed pdocs and meds and I can tell the difference. I have more energy. I still have thoughts of suicide, but until very recent circumstances, I found I was less attached to them, like I could think about it, but not feel like I needed to do it, if that makes any sense.