Whew. What an emotionally draining session THAT was! I think I need a nap! I must have cried for 10 full minutes. We were talking about our t relationship and how it relates to the healing of relationships from my childhood and it was very hard. I asked her the questions I wanted to ask, first the "do you think I think too much?" because I told her I think about this inner work all the freaking time it never goes away, it never stops, it's always there. Between calls at work, on my lunch break, in the bathroom, in the car, in the shower, I'm either thinking about this work or writing about it or whatever. She said that is natural actually for where I am at right now, she said it's because we are working very deeply now and compared it to like priestess training of old where they are immersed in their studies and nothing else. Except I have real life to deal with too - my job, my family, cooking, cleaning, laundry etc. so it can be exhausting.

I also asked about what she meant when she said not long ago "we all need someone to contain our process". I think I stumped her there. She kept answering the question with the question minus the question mark. I kept asking "But what does that MEAN?" she finally sort of explained it, that by talking with her, it's like keeping a river from flooding it's banks or something. She's not "containing" it as in a box that you toss something in and put a lid on and then stick it in a closet never to look at again. She said it's not that kind of container. I felt like giving HER a homework assignment to email me what she means by her containing my process.

She's so blasted perceptive though. This past week I texted her in the middle of the week a picture of the snow we were having. We talked about that too. My reason behind it was that I just for some reason really needed to feel that connection even if just for a minute -I needed to know I wasn't alone with all this stuff - but I didn't know how to ask for it so I just sent that picture. So now she offered a 15 minute mini-session mid week if I need that again. That was when I started to understand what she meant about "containing" my process. Not that I could explain it or anything. But I think I get it.

Now I am going to take a nap. Whew!