Hi frownupsidedown,

I remember that feeling. One time I totally bummed a friend out, I couldnt help it and, like you described, I lost that friend in a few days time. Thats hard and it makes the ball of depression a little bigger with each hurt we have like that. I so wish you werent going thru that right now.

Ultimately we cant control any one elses actions, only our own. With this pain youre feeling and the losses youre having I think its really important to remember to be extra gentle to yourself right now.

There is a lot of inner work to get to a place where we again feel good enough to re-connect to others we've lost. If we can be loving now, to ourselves, and to them, it makes that re-connection so much easier down the line. Love them, even if they are leaving you right now and do your best to understand that they dont understand. Many of them are hurt too and would like to do more if they knew how.