Like everyone else, I suppose, I have days where I just don't want to go to T. Several times I have even called to cancel only to hang up before T answers. I've told this to T and he has asked why I keep coming. I said I don't know. I'm mostly scared of the pain I'll feel discussing things, but I think the pain in T is lesser than the pain I'm actually experiencing. So I would say it's out of fear. But my T says it shows a commitment to the T process and the need togrow as a person.

So what keeps others going back to T? Is it personal growth? Fear? Or should we all just join a BDSM group?