I need help NOW!!!

I can't take one more trigger or flashback! I'm already broken, but I'm about to shatter. If I have one more memory of the guy who raped and abused me, I think I'm going to explode!

Just today, at church! I started having a panic attack and started to cry in fear. Just because the singer sounded like HIM and had the same name. I almost sprinted out of there.

I'm so freakin serious... I am going to shatter if it happens again. I CAN'T TAKE IT!!!

Is there ANY way to stop triggers? Ay at all?

I'm so desperate! I would eat a tree if that was how to stop it.
I'm already insane enough. I just wish I could erase my memory completely.

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!!!