Rhoda. Welcome to PC.. I think you will find lots of supportive folks here ready and willing to help ya out anytime they can.

I agree that you were abused.. even just watching the abuse was emotionally abusive to you. Don't feel like you have to compare your history to anyone else's... your pain is just as important, and your healing is what matters.

Talk about it as much as you can so you can be free of it.

Peace