Psychological blows such as the ones you've had recently can throw off the chemical balance of the brain. It's a serious depression that you are experiencing, in my view, and you've begun to self-medicate which is not going to restore the balance for you.

Why would you not go in and get that restored so that you can begin to work on your diet and other things to help you fully recover from what you've been through?

I can't tell you how quickly you can regain your health and happiness by getting the proper medical attention you need to have the chemistry restored. .