I don't know why I am so mad.

I was looking for something (a stack of memo paper) everywhere. I looked into my bag, the living room, my bed. And I went into the car, even check under the car sit. Why is it not there ? **I grew angrier and angrier.** I checked the ground around my parking lot, found nothing too.

Then I see the memo paper on the shelf. I putted them on the shelf.

I feel so mad, so mad. I feel like why even the memo paper had to go against me. (of course i know is not, memo paper is a dead object)

I don't know if I feel angry easily if somethings is not right. But the memo paper was suppose to be part of my self therapy. Now I am so upset I don't want to touch it, I feel like I want to throw it into the garbage can.

** may be cause I am already facing OCD difficulties and the memo paper is self therapy, and I feel like why even I want to do this mini task, thing has to go wrong, and go against me