Hi everyone. I am new to this but I know that the only help comes from those who have been there. I am in a really bad place right now and need some suggestions. I have had depression for many years and struggled with many things through it. During my last 6 years, I have worked for Daimlerchrysler and have had several times where I could not work due to my illness. For the last year and a half I had finally experienced freedom in a way I never knew. I had joy, peace and happiness that seemed to be lasting. Then along came a "friend" at work whom I grew to trust and shared a lot of my past horrors and stuff with, and my poetry. Anyway, long story short- he bagan manipulating me both emotionally and mentally and used all of the things he knew about me to do it (I didn't see it until the damage was done). Then the sexual harassment came and I stood up for myself for the first time in my life- It was so empowering! over the next three months he continued to do his damage until finally I could no longer take it. I felt dizzy, like my mind was going to explode and every ounce of my strength left. My doctor put me on disability for depression and anxiety and i have been off of work since 5-15-06. I filed a claim with the EEOC for the sexual harassment and things have gone way beyond that now, My company is now harassing me and making each day more miserable. They threatened termination after getting notice of my claim, they continually are denying my monetary disability benefits even my UAW representatives are treating me horrible!! I even emailed the UAW president and he refuses to respond. Needless to say, the way they are treating me has made any type of recovery impossible. I seem to only be getting worse. I am now suffering from TMJ and it HURTS so bad in my ears and head- I have absolutely no quality to the life I am living- I work to breathe it seems and now my children and husband are suffering. It is also difficult because my husband does not understand the depth of my illness, he just see's me as having my "***" on the couch all of the time. I guess what I am asking- is there anyone out there who has dealt with a company treating them like this and if yes- what do I do?? How in the world to I ease the physical pain of this illness? How can I help my husband to have some kind of empathy for me?? It all just hurts!! I have been on many different kinds of meds over the years. I am currently taking cymbalta and adderall xr? any advice. I just feel so lonely, empty and the physical pain of it all makes things just about unbearable. Thanks for listening and sorry this is so long.