.... i'm an a bit of a self pity run, with a nice dose of anger and fear just to make it interesting. I feel like I need to smash things up, I'm so wound up, I don't even want to post here, to let those of you that like to do it, jump in and be negative or criticize, or comment without any understanding, but I don't have anywhere else to vent right now, I just want to rage and scream, as the cold play song says 'nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be so hard'.