Yeah, you should definitely tell him about your pains and vivid thoughts. Ive tried to die a few times, for this exact reason. I'm glad I did myself better. If I would have died, she would have won, and I wouldn't be awesome anymore. Lol Out of curiosity though, why the thoughts? Is there a suspicion of him leaving you? If so, then I would ease into the problems or try and be passive aggressive about it. Either way, I think he will still give you the time of day. Usually when love is given, it is received. Let me know how it goes. Don't do anything regretful.