thank you liv and suzy, you think along the same lines as me.

i have money to fall back on, so im not concerned about financial difficulties. to be honest, i dont believe there are any obstacles in my way, i think that it is my life and i am in control, or if im not, i have to gain control. i had a session tonight with my therapist and i said to her about how im feeling, and we discussed it and she believes it is the right thing to do too. we discussed other routes after i have left my job, but she was concerned that i leave. she said that she feels "physical pain to see my time go to waste there" and i agree, i do think its a waste, because im worth more than that, and im not being cocky or arrogant, but i do think i am. and ive just realised it today! ive had such an epic day today, such a change in thougths and i now am able to see things clearly. something i have struggled to do for so long now. i am sure things are on the up...

simon