Are you in treatment for your depression? If so, call your doc or therapist & tell him/her about what you are feeling. You should not be trying to "tough it out" on your own. Your dad sounds supportive, but he can't give you medical or psychological advice. If you are not in treatment now, seek it out. There is hope. I've been where you are & I have seen a remarkable improvement in my moods & quality of life since on meds for bp.--Suzy