didn't really leave, but just lurking...not planning to post much though.

trigger, i guess...



the other day husband left town to hang out with friends. he'd mentioned it last week but i had completely forgotten and wasn't too okay with it in the first place. i'd had such a good day, and then he comes home just long enough to tell me he's leaving. even as i was freaking out i knew i shouldn't have gotten so upset, it shouldn't have been such a big deal, he deserves to get out without me once in a while if he lets me get out alone...but still, i wasn't prepared for it and it would have been so much better if he'd just not come home...

he offered to take daughter to grandma's so it'd just be me and son - easier to handle at night - and while he was running around getting her ready to go i SI'd, didn't really notice, was just my anxiety maxing out and i was twitching and ended up scratching the side of my face. but just looks like a bruise, like i ran into the corner of a cabinet door. husband saw and stopped me. after that i snapped out of it and helped him get daughter ready to go. and then had a pleasant, quiet evening with son. sigh...