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Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006
I wonder though, if you idealize not existing if it's a way of getting out of the feeling that you'd be missed, that you'd affect those that care or even just know you. I mean deep down many of us know that it would affect those people in our lives. Feeling suicidal means ignoring that. I dont' mean you consciously do this but I wonder if it's your mind's way of making thoughts of being gone, acceptable.
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Interesting thought - that could well be. There are a few people that I believe would be very hurt by it. If I were completely erased, they wouldn't be hurt (by either my past actions or by that final one).
I think it's also a control thing. Ultimate control over others' impressions and experiences and memories of me by simply deleting them.