Dug this thread back up....hope that's okay. Here's one I wrote when I was majorly disassociated July 3 of last year. Most of mine are written when I'm really messed up. Sorry about that. I need to title them eventually....
Isolated am I from the world.
Looking through a lense from afar
No feelings, no emotions, no real sensations
Head in the clouds.
My eyes looking at the world and myself from the stratosphere.
Unaware of much of my surroundings
Nothing sinks in.
Will not remember much of today when tomorrow dawns.
Fought this feeling.
Cried when I first felt the distance arise from the depths
But it is a saving grace, a lifesaver.
If I can't feel, I can't cry
Can't scream in frustration.
Or fall in to the depths of despair
Most importantly, I won't suicide
I won't lose total hope
I won't lose myself.
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